First post

So, i've decided to start a blog again.

This isn't a new idea for me. I have had a number of blogs over the last decade, each with varying degrees of success and longevity. And I think I know what separates the successful ones from the failed ones.

It all comes down to being true to my motives. Why am I creating the blog? What is it's true purpose. The most successful one I had was born after my attempts of a business failed miserably. It was a blog where I got to talk about digital card games, express my passion for them. It lead to a job with one of them, and I got to create lore for a game I loved (I might talk about that here, one day).

Its purpose was a place for me to do what I wanted the business to do. Stay connected to a community that was, at the time, very small. Find and talk about news that other sites weren't giving me. Be passionate about the type of games I love.

That's NOT what this is. And I think that's why all my other attempts at this has failed. This isn't really about my steam list, or my desire to play through the games that have spent a decade collecting dust. No, those are added bonus's but not the intended purposes.

Im a depressed bitch. I am struggling and I got very little, if anything, going for me. I have dreams of being a writer, but no motivation to write. I have things to get off my chest, but no audience I want to dump it on.

Blogging has been a form of therapy for me since my teenage years. The idea of vague audience, a chance to say out loud the things I need to get off my chest, but with the possibility of it never being heard. Its a form of catharsis I have never found anywhere else. Its long overdue.

So the point of this blog is a chance for me to find some purpose, to express myself, to give me some structure to start writing regularly, without feeling overwhelmed. It will also give me the chance to gush about my appreciation for games. I will be calling a lot of games art. I will probably be quite pretentious in some spaces.

I wont be getting too personal, but I suspect daily life will seep into the blog. That's expected by me, so should be expected by anyone who stumbles across this.

I chose to go with the Steam Library angle though because I find it rather disgusting and disappointing that I have roughly $3000 worth of games ive never played, and I think it might be fun to document my going through them.